Category: Blog

I finally got the email that I was expecting. It would either say I got the part or I didn’t. I didn’t get the part. The email came over 24 hours after a buddy of mine said they got their email – except his was good news. So now I’m 0 for 2 on auditions. I feel so exposed yet unseen at the same time.

The first audition was for the same show, just a different run. I was not very confident. I was actually very nervous and didn’t think I did that well. I wasn’t very surprised that I didn’t get it. This time though, I killed it in there. I made the whole room laugh, even the person that was stonewalling everybody. I did two scenes and both times the room erupted in laughter. It felt good. But I didn’t make the cut. I’m questioning whether I want to do auditions again. The shit hurt.

Anyway…

Some friends and I got the latest 2k game for PC even though the PC version of these games are historically bad. In fact, when this latest one came out, it was the first time I ever saw reviews on Steam that were “Overwhelmingly Negative”.

But it was on sale so we each grabbed a copy to play with each other. We figured we could avoid the hackers and bugs this way. We decided to start our own league and have a fantasy draft tonight. Now the way this friend group operates, who knows if it will last long or even it will actually happen? I’m still looking forward to it either way.

On a different note but same song, D is playing one of her last softball games tonight. She joined one of those adult leagues a month or so ago. I haven’t been to a game yet (mostly by her request), but tonight I’m taking the dog down to see her play.

Because I’m a freak who always thinks ahead, turns out I had a copy of the posts I made on the blog before I had to wipe site clean. It wasn’t very much content but still. I was able to reupload them so that’s cool – I guess.

Other than that, the site seems to be running okay for now. I’ll do some more checks soon when I feel like developing it out. Might just let it look like a mess for a while. Need to distance myself from that terrible customer service experience. Three live chat agents turned into a 36 email thread spread out over three days all for me to just give up. I guess they won.

Had a few decent meetings today. My therapist tried to drop a few bombs as well. It got a little emotional. I probably won’t write about it until I’ve completely digested the information though.

Until next time, bitches.

Hello?!?! Is this thing working? I’ll take that as a yes.

Well…the blog is being restarted. Completely wiped. All previous entries are gonezo. Kaput. Long story short, hosting provider support ain’t shit. Not just my hosting provider either. All hosting provider support I’ve ran into seems to purposely not help you in your situation. I think it’s more profitable for them.

I think that the majority of their customers are people who have a great idea for a website, or need one for their business, so they throw money at a web host and then get confused because they don’t know what they’re doing. They try support, get confused more, and then come running to a developer (like me 🙃) for help.

So…what was the problem with the website?

Who fuckin’ knows? I had my theories, but every time I brought that up to support they were ignored. In fact, every time I brought up they my theories were being ignored – they ignored that too! FUN! It was a permissions issue though. My site stopped working at some point. Since support refused to help me, I figured I’d start over and see if the problem reproduces itself.

Ugh, what a shame. Either way, the site is back up now, but we’re sticking with the default theme for now. I think I’ll create my own this time. You see, the problem with the site didn’t arise until after I found a random theme online and started messing around with it. I didn’t notice anything was wrong until I tried to use my own files. For now, everything appears to be working (just like it did last time). So…onward I suppose.

I have a ‘Hello World’ to delete. PEACE!

Met with some friends to get some Indian fusion tacos. I honestly don’t think there’s anything wrong with fusion restaurants. I’m not a foodie by any means, but I think fusion food is inevitable. The problem people have with fusion is either the hipster connotation or the fact that not everything should be fused.

Besides that, I got to hang with some good friends. I didn’t drink because D and I are doing 75 Hard (28 days left!), but that’s okay. I feel like I’ve done so much partying in my life that I’m now at a point where I can enjoy sobriety. What a weird sentence, I know.

Tomorrow, I have to make a flow chart…

Life is a weird journey. It takes you places. Sometimes it takes you to a random coffee shop where you sit at a wobbly table and drink an iced chai that you bought out of pity.

How is it, you ask? It’s not bad, a little heavy on the cinnamon, but that’s not surprising at this point. But enough of your questions, back to the task at hand. I have something to talk about. What I want to talk about is my work. What do you do? Ugh, hate that question. I make shit. Does that work? No? Fine, I make shit with computers. That’s the best you’re going to get.

The problem with my work is that there is so much of it. I’m doing nothing but work. I take on so much that it’s all I do. The worst part is that I think I love it. So here I am, chugging extra cinnamon, and wobbling away at my laptop.

My therapist thinks I’m too preoccupied with what I don’t want in life instead of what I do want. That made me realize two things. 1) I should be more meaningful in my decisions and 2) I should find a new therapist.

Hello World!

I decided to take it easy today. I have had a lot going on lately. I tend to take on a lot of work and, lately, I’ve been exhausted. So I decided to take the day for myself. No plan, no goals, no worrying, just me.

In other words, I started my blog today 🫠. I realize that most people don’t start new projects on their mental health days. The idea is to not add to your plate. The thing is that I usually have a lot of plates spinning. I think it would be good to have something that doesn’t matter. I can plan to post something every day with no pressure on what the content is about. I can use it as a way to de-stress and debrief myself from the day. Hell, no one will probably ever read this anyway. There’s nothing to lose here!

So this is where I can log my thoughts and activities. We’ll see if I stick with it finally.