It’s been another revolution around the Sun which usually creates the opportunity for inward reflection and desires to make big changes and reorganization. But let me tell you, I am long overdue for some organization.
I have been holding myself back lately. I’ve also avoided writing on this blog as well. I’ve noticed a small pattern emerging here where I’ll blog when I’m really upset or feeling dramatic then I’ll feel embarrassed and avoid writing for a while. I’ve been, kind of, doing that in my actual life as well. I have too much going on. I need to make some structural changes. I’ve planned it out (for the most part), I’ve discussed it with my partner, I’ve gotten ready to trim the fat, then I just…don’t.
IDK. Maybe I’m afraid of the future. Maybe I’ve gotten too comfortable. Maybe I’m just tired. But right now, I feel hopeful and ready to push the buttons I’ve been hovering my fingers over. I’m ready. I just need to fuckin push.
So here goes nothing. Next week. Things will be different.